“If we wait until we’re ready we’ll be waiting for the rest of our lives.”
There used to be a point in my life when I didn’t ere to the side of caution. I would jump in head first and just pray that it all worked out. I would make mistakes and have to suffer the consequences… and those consequences always seemed to come swiftly.
Some of the most bold and best decisions of my life came without thinking much about it and just going in head first.
As I get older and have become a mom I realize that some of those decisions were just plain stupid. Let’s be honest… sneaking out in the middle of the night (I’m so sorry mom for cutting that screen on the window and keeping you up at night worrying), not putting the proper time to study for the SAT’s or any tests for that matter, or even some of my boyfriend choices were just not advisable.
The reality is I had no idea where I wanted to go in my life and I didn’t care because in that moment I was just living how I knew how. By the seat of my pants.
So professionally speaking I knew I needed to do better. I needed a plan.
I put the plan to not plan behind me and decided that it hadn’t done what I wanted it to in my life, so that it was time to take another route. Like most things, when I decide to do something, I go all in.
I headed to the nearest Office Max and purchased more organizational supplies than one should ever own at one time (I will never get over my office supply addiction so don’t even try to stage an intervention).
I had a plan. I was ready. Until I didn’t have a single clue what the heck I was ready for.
It is the reason I didn’t open my insurance agency years ago. I knew that I couldn’t just simply “wing it” like I had for so long. So for years I worked as hard as I could for others and made sure their names shone bright. Some great, some not so great. In the end what did my planning show me? It showed me that I am fabulous at multi colored highlighting planning, I am also great at drinking coffee pretty much all day, and I am a darn good insurance agent.
It showed me lots of things but most importantly it showed me that I was terrified. I needed that 16 year old girl to come back and convince me to go all in. I needed her to say things like “who cares and figure it out later”, or “stop being such a woos and just go after it”. I needed a swift kick into No Regrets land. Now 10 years later I live in “terrified land” daily but have enough of the seat of my pants left in me to look at it in the face and accept the challenge.
Whether it’s owning my own business, waiting 7 years to move in with my husband (yes we were married a year before we actually even lived in the same city), or even current decisions in my life I am still faced with… I am currently searching for the balance between planning and just experiencing it as it comes. It might not always be the right decision at the time but I am trying to remember that sometimes the biggest mistakes I have made in my life have also turned into the greatest memories. Good thing for me is I am getting better at this learning thing so I tend to not repeat the mistakes.
I am a constant work in progress.
I am still learning daily that it is ok to dive head first in but that it is also ok to have a business plan when you are getting ready to dive. I am also learning that having 4 kids was never in the plan, but it is the greatest thing that has even happened to me. Life is about breaking the mold and throwing out that planner (when I say throw out I mean figuratively because lord knows I never throw out office supplies). As my sister in law once told me… the important stuff will always be marked in pen, the rest of it is erasable. Learning to adapt as it’s thrown at you and using your 16 year old inhibitions to help you make a decision that may be a little out of your comfort zone.
We are never guaranteed tomorrow. If you wait until your planner tells you it’s time… it will never happen. That I know for sure. Go after it. Whatever “it” is for you… just go after it. You are never too young, too old, or too unprepared. If you want it bad enough just know it won’t always be easy but it will be worth it.
Life is short.
Break the rules.
and never regret something that once made you smile.
– Mark Twain